Alright so I wanted to write something about the last week. Well, Thursday my cooperating teacher was gone and I had complete control of the class besides a sub being there. Yes, I got to do all the work while she sat on her butt. Must have been the easiest 60 dollars she ever made. To top it off it turns out we graduated from high school the same year. Talk about awkward. It was nice having the class completely to myself and I could be the "Matilda" kind of teacher that I really want to be. Anyway, the next day I woke up with a sore throat and a fever but went to school. Yes, I'm a big grown up teacher I know. Crazy isn't it? My cooperating teacher took one look at me and sent me home. I came home, slept for five hours, ate some chicken noodle soup and watched scary movies while prepping for next week. Not too shabby of a Friday.
This weekend was really productive and restful. Didn't manage to go to church but ran instead. Sometimes that's where God and I have the best talks though. The last week I've kept in contact with a good old friend of mine. We hadn't reconnected in awhile and it was awesome to see how his faith has grown since we were really close two summers ago. Patrick and I, strangely enough, bonded through our high ropes training at camp. He was the kid that wouldn't let me go first for our test even though I had to go to the bathroom. Patrick even watched as I had to dance to keep it in :) We've been good friends ever since with our constant sarcasm banter. He's been there alot for me this whole school year and kept me on track with my relationship with God. Whenever the depression grabs hold, he is always there to spot me just in case I fall. I'm very lucky to have a friend like that. He has spring break this week and we plan on going to visit our friend Paula for her birthday next weekend. It will be great to see two good camp friends again and to pretend like I'm a normal 22 year old without the responsibility of 25 younglings for once.
Paula and Patrick dated for the longest time until they broke up about a year ago. They still remain good friends even though I know it is hard for them. Right after they broke up, Paula revealed her heart to me. Patrick did the same not too long after. It's really hard being such good friends with both and hearing different sides of the story. But, their friendship, even after such a heartbreak stays true. He has met her new boyfriend a couple of times now. I can't imagine what that would be like-sitting next to your ex's new significant other. It would probably take alot of control for me to not break down. Patrick gives me hope though that some day I can be at the same point he is at. He genuinely wants the best for Paula and for her to be happy even if her future is with another guy. Now, I can't say I'm at the same point Paula and Patrick are. Yes, I do want the best for my ex. Yes, I forgave him for everything a long time ago. And yes, I've accepted that he isn't in God's plan for me. The difference is that I've been spared seeing my ex in a relationship with someone else. I'm guessing that isn't too far away though. All I can hope for is that my heart and friendship are strong enough to last through it.
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