Finding out that your ex is in a new relationship is never easy. Especially when you, yourself are at very vulnerable place in the journey back to your old self. Its not something that I'd thought I'd want to know. Its not something I thought would come so soon.
When I found out, I couldn't breathe. It was like the breakup came back six months later just as hurtful and raw as ever. All those emotions I bottled up came bursting out in huge sobs that shook my whole body. My Mom wanted to know what was wrong, but I didn't have the energy or courage to tell her. It's not that I thought the two of us would get back together. I knew that wouldn't happen.
I just didn't expect this whole situation to still be so raw. It's like the whole relationship I had with him never happened and that I was finally replaced. Man, did that hurt to think about. I've come a long way with counseling and through talking with a few friends that I can trust with my deepest secrets. But, this left me feeling more exposed that I ever had in my life. All of those beach trips, apple orchard visits, and everything else that was so special in that relationship flashed through my mind in a matter of minutes. They were all gone, erased.
The few friends I have approached this subject with thought him dating someone else was for the best. One said, "To be honest this is probably a good thing. It sucks now, but this will help you get over him. Just because he is with someone else doesn't mean you weren't cared for. I know when my ex started dating someone else she still cared for me. Use this to move on. Give it some time and prayer. The pain will go away." Yes, what they said looks great when I write it down. But, its so much easier said than done.
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